Stay off of his lawn!
Now in my eBay store!
More soon,
Avery
Thursday, February 28, 2019
Little Fella on eBay!
He may or may not have hidden a frog in his teacher's desk...
Now in my eBay store!
More soon,
Avery
Tuesday, February 26, 2019
Marty's Madi Gras!
Marty has asked (begged) me to share his video (that he made all by himself) from this weekend's Mardi Gras parade!
More soon,
Avery
On This Day...
LONG PERSONAL POST ALERT:
On this day three years ago I was in a very bad, dark, and rocky place. I don't intend to name any names (though, those who know me will know the situation I'm referring to...) But I want to tell you the story:
Starting in 2012, I was in a nearly 4-year relationship with a very controlling and manipulative person. Of course, it didn't start off badly at all. There were some fun and lovely times. But when it got rough it went downhill FAST... I did very much care for this person, but she was making our lives very difficult. Lots of unnecessary drama, lack of communication and respect... Ya know, all that stuff a relationship really needs.
My entire life I've gotten these FEELINGS when something's not right, it's how I know God is watching out for me and keeping me from danger. The feelings were STRONG here, I knew I was not meant to be with this girl and I wanted OUT. In 2 years I made 26 attempts to break this relationship off, but to no avail. She threatened to kill herself if I left. So, out of fear, I stayed. I would initiate serious conversations, and try to explain my concerns and feelings, but everything started yet another fight.
I was spending 7 days a week with her, I wasn't working or making any money, I had lost job opportunities, I didn't have time to sleep or shower, I was not eating, and I lost a lot of weight (that I didn't really have to lose in the first place). I was a zombie, just going through the motions, completely empty, but still expected to give more.
There was a massive blowout near Valentine's Day of 2016, where we tried to talk through things, but ended with everything I'd ever bought for, or given, her being ripped, broken, or thrown in my general direction. Not a good night for anyone...
Which brings me to this day three years ago, when my girlfriend attempted an overdose. She called me around noon and wanted to "talk until she fell asleep" before telling me the severity of the situation half an hour into the conversation. I hung up and immediately called her mom (who was only a room away from her) to let her know what was up. I had to choose to not run to her side, instead I stayed at home, climbing my walls until she and her parents got back from the ER. She called me "just to talk" late that night, she picked yet ANOTHER fight, and that's when I ended our relationship. I know to call things off via phone call might be cowardly, but I couldn't wait. I desperately needed to remove myself from the situation.
Obviously it didn't go well, there was a lot of yelling, swearing and many threats to ruin my reputation because "she knew how much it means to me". But this time I stayed tough. I eventually blocked her and her family across all social media (though I'm pretty sure she's still watching me somehow), and did my best to start rebuilding myself.
To this day I am STILL dealing with the fallout; I have recurring nightmares, and I can get very paranoid, call it a type of PTSD, if you will... Three years later and she is still stirring the pot, causing drama and spreading rumors, things that have cost me jobs and professional relationships. But there's always a few casualties in a war, I suppose... but every day is progress.
As you know, things in my life have VASTLY improved, and things continue to get better every day that I step farther away from those dusty memories. I am happily married to a wonderful, supportive, and encouraging woman who I know ALWAYS has my back.
I REALLY don't want to sound cliche or like a self-help book, but I know that there are others currently stuck in similar situations, and please know that if I can get out so can you. This is your life, you're the one driving, the decision really is ALL yours.
Be tough. Stand up for yourself. Stay strong. I believe in you.
Monday, February 18, 2019
Disneyland Vlog!
Happy (belated) Valentine's Day!
Celebrate with us and our new Vlog about our recent trip halfway around the world (kinda) when we visited Disneyland in California!
Disney is our happy place so I'm glad we get to experience the magic so often! Brace yourself for lots of fun Disney facts, and a lot of us geeking out over every little thing!
More very soon,
Avery
Insp-Hare-Ration #19
Who else?!
This marks the end of this series, but I'm sure the Hares will all be back in your faces soon!
This marks the end of this series, but I'm sure the Hares will all be back in your faces soon!
More soon,
Avery
Sunday, February 10, 2019
Little Monster on eBay!
He met Elmo once and wants everyone to know it.
Now in my eBay store!
More soon,
Avery
Insp-Hare-Ration #18
Cousin Kevin knows what he's talking about!
Quite late posting this one, playing some more catch up, we've been adventuring! More (including a new Vlog) to come shortly!
More soon,
Avery
Friday, February 1, 2019
Resolutions
I know that I've been pretty darn quiet lately, and I have a few REALLY good reason this time! The events of the last month or so have put me into a bit of a funk and have really made me think about a lot of things. In a way, I suppose I'm posting this as my month-too-late New Years Resolution:
But before I do that, I need to tell a story...
I REALLY wish I could lay out some specifics here, but I honestly can't (at least for a while...) In mid-December, I was presented with an amazing opportunity, something that I've wanted my entire life, and have even worked toward for the last 8+ years of my professional career. I didn't hesitate, I chased it immediately, booked a plane ticket, and went on the adventure. And it went very well! This event lead to another in early January, which I then had to turn down. Now, this isn't a sad story, I don't want anyone's sympathy, or words of wisdom. I have come out the other side of this thing happier, lighter, and even determined. What HAD been a dream is not really an option anymore, and I'm okay with it. VERY okay.
Not taking on this new (and frankly quite scary) adventure has helped me see what IS most important to my life right now. The possibilities of what I can accomplish in my own corner of the world is pretty much unlimited. I have a lot of talented people around me that I definitely want to call on to help grow that world. Creating, building, and making are my top priorities, I just needed a bit of a kick in the pants to get myself in motion.
I want 2019 to be my most productive year ever! Making a presence for myself (and Audrey) in the online community is going to be a major focus. Lots of videos, new characters, and maybe even a podcast or two... Who knows what will happen in the next 11 months, but I want to look back on this post in January of 2020 and feel good about the body of work that comes from this year.
I'm in no way a therapist, and I do have a lot of sad days, but I've been able to get through all of the earth-shattering decisions in my life by reminding myself of this:
It's your life. You're driving. The decision is yours.
Make your decision, and make it something great.
More soon,
Avery
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